Starting over isn’t for anyone except yourself! A writer doesn’t really care whether she has an audience when she starts over. It’s about new direction and how she feels. How she’s gonna make things better for herself!
Initially, I wanted to be the best I could be for my readers. Now, I just want to be me. If readers get my best, that’s gravy, but what they will get is honesty—and honestly, I don’t give anybody, including myself, my best everyday. Some days I’m trifling, lazy, no good, and I just want to be alone. Other days I love life, people and I’m raring to go.
This “ish” (writing) is hard. The hardest part of it is the amount of time you spend in your head, spinning the story and listening to the character. When you come out again, time has passed and the world has moved on. You seem moody to the people who matter most to you and they seem a little distant. Perhaps, because you have been so comfortable holding them at bay while in your ‘other world’, they don’t know if they can trust you to really be present.
I understand the need for writers camps and author’s hiatuses. But—I’m gonna give it another shot and really, that’s all anybody can do. Writing, like everything else we aspire to, is full of fits and starts. I applaud writers for even wanting to start up again. People love me when I’m present, and I don’t get paid enough for being MIA while writing!
It would be so easy to call it quits. So easy to say, “it’s too hard” and stop trying—but the stories just keep on coming. If I’m left alone for even a few minutes, I hear voices! They start talking to me and I have to write down what they’re saying. I wish I could get free of this. LOL! Not really! It’s a blessing to be creative!